#1 9/12/2023
Hello, I suppose you have stumbled here out of curiousity because of either the Carrd I made or out of all the neocities websites you found this out of random, well, I will say I am a little proud at trying something simple as this. At first, I joined Neocities pretty much to try by my own some daydream i had in my mind, where i would see some retro cool or cute looking websites, i wanted to do the same, i felt so much ambition about making a website, trying to look as mysterious and interesting like some kind of epic piece of lore of whatever i could have made so i tried to learn a little, but i felt it so hard just because of how little time i have spent on or know much about it. Even i received help from someone, who i pretty much blew it up because of lack of what i could set it as a reality in the website, but at the end, I guess I was not too sure what i wanted, what i wanted to do cannot be made out of just magic, and i was feeling over ambitious just to do something unique like other people made, i cramped too much stuff what i wanted and changed too much of the plans either because it probably was too complicated and i didn't bothered to plan it any other bit, at the end i got unmotivated to plan any more so i left it or stop mentioning it.
I went overboard with the illusion of being a piece of art over being something practical, But now i have created this just about today, it's basic and simple, i could have done something better about it but i don't think i am too focused at making it pretty right now, specially when i am busy with my final exams and works from the university. although i wished i could have done this thing long ago, not sure if this is the best or worst time to start this stupid website, specially of how much i am screwing things up lately upon my life in general, but it's better now or never. As much overwhelmed i feel due to my recent issues on my life, i don't think moping will help this time, but for now, i will just slowly type whatever is going on through my mind about my stuff here, and see if how far i can do about it. maybe writting would also help me kill time and cope a little, i mean i only started doing this blog to maybe work things out about my characteristics even if they may be impossible.